Discipline Mercilessly

"The tougher you are on yourself, the easier life will be on you. The easier you are on yourself, the tougher life will be on you."

is this true?

Talk Is Talk

i just recollected viewing the clip
where i saved it in my phone
it's about alex giving o malley a piece of his mind

"a man would move on
but you
you mop around like a dog waiting to get kick"

i need to take a leaf out of that

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Phelps came and went
captivated me, no less
since Athens, Mel 07
you know a god when you see one
you think about the mind games he have to play
i need to take a leaf out of that

and you know when bloomberg reported about our ludicrous extra bonus for the silver medal holders, and comparing to phelps (half a mill USD?), you know we are really paying something

jo said she's suffering from non swimming syndrome
how can we all , ex swimmers, not?
people wax lyrical of how well done he did
and mr bolt of track came to a close 2nd in terms of performance
big ups to usain bolt
taking celebratedness performance to the next level
he's just got that little charm where it never fails to work
3 world records
the twin medal 100m + 200m
really something

but people dont know
how difficult and absurd is to break a record in the pool
and, what, 7?
8 gold?
people need to understand it's equally difficult per medal for medal
track vs swim

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oh yea, i lost my ralph lauren polo
so what the flying fuck now
move on

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I realise how bad my chinese is
when i went to hainan to give training
but it all isn't that bad afterall
the in and out communication
serves up the goodness

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im heading to thailand for reservist
told aaron im a 'uncomfy junkie'
sure i / we all dont like landing ourselves in difficult positions
but i realised
subconsciously
im wanting what i dont want

that's supposed to be good for me, right?

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Im leaving the business
for what seemed to be a long hiatus
i guess i need to give up a big part of something
to embark on my next challenge

STUDY

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"love, you dont seemed to have time to date."

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what pretty much captivated me all these while
is how the human is able to dangle the impossible
and trying to reach it

but what drives you?

every morning i get a speed train of thoughts
running over my mind
like a fucking awesome rail wheels
on a fucking lousy track
yea, the thoughts are the wheels
and my poor soul / mind is thy track
runneth over
and done with

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understand this
or forever hold your peace, my dear


"In business, words are words, explanations are explanations, promises are promises

but

only performance is reality."

mourn.

STRANGE LATELY

especially sat, sun, mon
i had a bout of rashes on sunday night
and i woke up having this back frame pain, breathe shit
and i feel weird
physically, weird
is it the loss of the christos
that i felt like i woke up, soulless.
the drive to push my goals kinda got scattered
and i came to office pretty stunned
im feeling fucking empty

empty empty

BROWN & WILLIANSON TOBACCO

KEEPING SMOKERS ADDICTED

I'm reading up on this case now
relates about marketing and it's social responsibilities
US FDA launched a war in 94 against this social ill marketeer
so what should be the ultimate force in deciding?

I'm am doing an online biz
but how am i connected to the ethical aspect
for a long while, i do not care about the what-haves-should-nots
afterall, inflation comes, people have the spending power
they should, at large, regulate their own actions, and do their own filtering

WHICH BRINGS ME TO A PERTINENT QUESTION

in doing one's own business
how do we coincide one's personal and business goals?
in Aaron's case, i have fetch this concept too many a times
i constantly asked what would be my personal goals in the mini biz
and goal check periodically : have it been changed?
with luck, i didn't manage to probe much into the enterprise growth
and it's managing to stay on boat
(or is it?)

i need to read read read
this motherfucker disciple is small no less
but it's a perfect platform to exercise the tricks and wisdom no less
hey, it's idiot proof that it sails easily, and it will sink easily
now if you don't apply, no amount of hard work will turn kittens into lions
fucking adage shit now eh

reconnect.com

i was getting the buzz from TV 'noise'
when i remember one program talking about personal well being in general
i think it was talking about coffee or some shit
then he talks about connection
with oneself
oneself connect with oneself

nowadays im using my lappie at home
cos the home PC is just too wacked
and i dont have beats or music in the lappie
so i switch on the tv just to have some noise
in my life, in general
i dont have, like, personal time
let alone, from above, some quiet time where i have time to just, think.
i think these only time is when i'm on the plane
scooting from one end to another
but im a sucker for flight entertainment
the one time i really did some search on my messy life
was that kuantan trip

so, about reconnection
i truly believe now
whenever i can, i should just shut off everything
and just ask myself questions
i think i have a good grip of my prospects
of what i wanna do

ok
walk the talk
i get it.

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CHRISTOS, LOST

my mastermind christo
some motherfuckers stole it
and it just have to take one time where i left it outside

I am fucking fucking sad.

getting clearer by the day

the vision, that is
that i think im getting a control of things
i am walking more of the talk
and i wanna do more
i wanna read

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yesterday i had a night out with the peeps
i wanted to shut the fuck up for once
but i still talk and talk
but i mentioned it makes me feel apprehensive
so why not (at times la)
so i can fucking run the talk
but still
better keep the mouth shut

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im a fan of that toro guy which did pan's labyrinth
his creatures are so fabulistic fabulous
so i then realised he did hellboy
the main hell boy didnt catch me and my asthetic nerve
maybe the japanese-ish hair only?
everything else was pretty normal
MIB blah blah
but what really enticed me was the creatures
the abe sapian guy
and of cos fucking beautiful creature salma blair or something
and that german sword welding guy
im in love wit that suit
see, i AM a fan of daft punk



its that helmet, really.

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i caught a buncha bozos fluanting their street wares out in the streets in cine sat AM time
man, you think about this fucking farce
these kiddos, they are kidding, right?
head to toe : >1k?
they didnt know they are facing THE motherfucking disciple himself lol

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it felt weird when somebody is sharing the room with you again, and she's asleep
felt like me anf gareth in the room
i had to dim the lights
ear the phones
and, yea,

shut the fuck up

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"Do or do not - There is no try. " - Master Yoda

Adage

i came through a mail a honey bun sent me
so fuckin' apt

"Doing good work in (insert your company name)
is like shitting in your dark pants.
You get a warm feeling
but nobody takes notice"

let's not jump

if i can fight and find and wait what i like to do
why can't i fight and find and wait who i like to like?

the waters is infested, my friend.