reconnect.com

i was getting the buzz from TV 'noise'
when i remember one program talking about personal well being in general
i think it was talking about coffee or some shit
then he talks about connection
with oneself
oneself connect with oneself

nowadays im using my lappie at home
cos the home PC is just too wacked
and i dont have beats or music in the lappie
so i switch on the tv just to have some noise
in my life, in general
i dont have, like, personal time
let alone, from above, some quiet time where i have time to just, think.
i think these only time is when i'm on the plane
scooting from one end to another
but im a sucker for flight entertainment
the one time i really did some search on my messy life
was that kuantan trip

so, about reconnection
i truly believe now
whenever i can, i should just shut off everything
and just ask myself questions
i think i have a good grip of my prospects
of what i wanna do

ok
walk the talk
i get it.

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CHRISTOS, LOST

my mastermind christo
some motherfuckers stole it
and it just have to take one time where i left it outside

I am fucking fucking sad.

getting clearer by the day

the vision, that is
that i think im getting a control of things
i am walking more of the talk
and i wanna do more
i wanna read

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yesterday i had a night out with the peeps
i wanted to shut the fuck up for once
but i still talk and talk
but i mentioned it makes me feel apprehensive
so why not (at times la)
so i can fucking run the talk
but still
better keep the mouth shut

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im a fan of that toro guy which did pan's labyrinth
his creatures are so fabulistic fabulous
so i then realised he did hellboy
the main hell boy didnt catch me and my asthetic nerve
maybe the japanese-ish hair only?
everything else was pretty normal
MIB blah blah
but what really enticed me was the creatures
the abe sapian guy
and of cos fucking beautiful creature salma blair or something
and that german sword welding guy
im in love wit that suit
see, i AM a fan of daft punk



its that helmet, really.

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i caught a buncha bozos fluanting their street wares out in the streets in cine sat AM time
man, you think about this fucking farce
these kiddos, they are kidding, right?
head to toe : >1k?
they didnt know they are facing THE motherfucking disciple himself lol

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it felt weird when somebody is sharing the room with you again, and she's asleep
felt like me anf gareth in the room
i had to dim the lights
ear the phones
and, yea,

shut the fuck up

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"Do or do not - There is no try. " - Master Yoda

Adage

i came through a mail a honey bun sent me
so fuckin' apt

"Doing good work in (insert your company name)
is like shitting in your dark pants.
You get a warm feeling
but nobody takes notice"

let's not jump

if i can fight and find and wait what i like to do
why can't i fight and find and wait who i like to like?

the waters is infested, my friend.

ok not bad did some shit today

some shit as in those shit
that priority shit
and as i was looking for a particular guy
(speaking of which, in any case anyone knows Zack from hall 8, drop me a buzz willya?)
so i ringed up several of contacts
it was good
old buddies were revived
wait, they were not fucking dead anyway
so "how are you?"
my dear fly boys and girls who followed me all fucking NATO will know its been a long journey
so fucking long i didnt wanna explain
so fucking disturbed, that i dont wanna preach
but this right here now
ima stop going preaching and not practising
its so fucking embarrassing to say the least
so no more fucking NATO disciple

peace.

as i recall

as i recall
it was pretty shitty before the roadshow
it was even more shitty during the roadshow
the cards were shuffled to be dealt when i was back

ROADSHOW

I learned so much
for the good and for the bad
from the people travelling with me
and the people i met during the travels
that man is a PR pro
take a leaf from him, i should
but disappointed i was at times
but fuck it
life's lessons
now i dont even feel like drafting the complain letter to air phillippines
i was just glad i missed the typhoon

CONSANGUINE

all in all
i think i am glad
i think what is worth sad is the promises and words said to the public
funnily is how i tried to even comprehend that this was gonna work
i checked with the doctor
i did what i was supposed to
gah, i knew already what the doctor was gonna tell me
about that, i think i know more!
but its gonna be so tedious
i think the bulk of the future we will be worrying and scratching our heads
so when this time, things doesnt go my way
i say the puzzle was pieced together for the better future for us

thank you for everything :)

THE RETURN

everything seemed so fuzzy when i returned to office
i got the new lappie
and someone seemed to be more tolerant of me
yea, i am now able to achieve a certain something
(man this fucking sucks that i cant pen out when i think someones may be reading)
but that ain gon stop me from achieving "MY SPACE"

NEED TO MENTION

is that someone
yes, you.
part time, full time, i dont really care
thanks for being there when i need someone
and taking me to pig out
i said its awesome, it was awesome
the warmth was good too

THE FUTURE

i am gaining strength on certain stuff
take that friend of diezepang
take that TIPPING POINT of mine
im gon view it with a motherfucking +

FUCKING RESERVIST!

fucking first blood goes to thailand
fucking 2 jabs at the same time
fucking no comrades today
fucking hope everything is gon be AOK

EPISODE OF THE MONTH

girls gone wild - wildest bar in america
and you thought this show was getting boring

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What am I supposed to do
With all these blues
Haunting me, everywhere, no matter what I do
Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I cant let go
When will this night be over

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

Seen a lot of broken hearts go sailing by
Phantom ships, lost at sea
And one of them is mine
Raising my glass, I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why
The stars don't seem to guide me

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

The ghost of you and me
When will it set me free
I hear the voices call
Following footsteps down the hall
Trying to save what's left of my heart and soul

Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I can't let go
When will the night be over

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me

I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me