GRIEF

28th November 2007

Ian's computer

Enigma, Lover, Companion

Rest In Peace

TORN

i'm so torn between 2 guys and a queen

and i have tons of writing to translate here from Djehuty

i need to write a long-assed one soon

but for now

la reine du plancher de danse est manquée tellement tellement

man..............

The 8+1th Disciples

This right here
is the 9th SITE
back atchu again
as we proceed
to give you whatchu need

click with me now
and Ctrl + D with me

http://9thdisciple.blogspot.com/

http://picasaweb.google.com/9thdisciple

last straw???

this straw is being shoved up my nostril now

please imagine it.

Need To

I need to see them
either, or both
QUEEN
and a psychiatrist

cos im going crazy

from the airport to the plane to the airport

I was COMPLETELY smitten
with the
QUEEN OF THE DANCE FLOOR

mindless talk senseless

THAT DAY

SK ask me whether am i a christian
"if not, maybe you can go visit temple"
cos this week is like not that smooth for ya
i kinda get what he sayin
cos it aint really smooth
what else, but work
im ready to take shit
cos im prepared to take shit
cos work is all about taking shit
straight outta school city
you know dynamics aint gonna be the same
but is it really that stinky?
sometimes R and company testing my limits
granted, i think hes a nice bloke
but sometime somewhat somehow just condescend-ed me into hell
yea maybe my learning speed is not up to the expectation of the position
im ok to strive to emulate BR
but sometimes when i read specifications
i get all thinking tinkering
like what am i doing here
like why are my colleagues so fucking old
induced me into their generation
so much that i actually go clubbing without ID
fucking forgeting dynamics
like what i have to put up with his shit
like am i ready to make the jump
i dont wanna be a fucking quitter
and quitters take shit and path the less travelled
im destined for GREAT shit
but im losing sight of my goals
and im actually 'settling'
and even now 9th doesnt excite me
i hope when the money rolls in, i will be
so is it actually true you can only excel in something you like?
YJ proved not
and so did alot of people
we will see
dont fucking know how to write shit anymore
yea CK is right
my blog doesnt look like im writing for people to read
partial marketing weapon
turning out to be an outlet
and connecting with old friends

*

i went to exxonmobil
prepared presentations
left my notebook there
felt a connection (again) with exxon key account holder
felt warmth when i went to kenaka and saw diligent old folks working humbly
got into a whirlwind of overseas trip news
got really pissed instructions were not passed down properly by R
dont look forward to going germany and anywhere else
hope to be tarzan

**

ANOTHER DAY, TODAY

i realised im having palpitations when i see R
no fucking good
and his attitude towards me aint changing a good direction
i'd like to think im young and i can take it
counterwise B called and he sounds so ... nice comparatively
we'll see

***



so im quite satisfied with the goods
but as of now im not satisfied with the shots
im quite satisfied with the site layout
but im not with the variety

****

SQ 626 BKK 1935
fuckin' screw up the batam outing
better be good
grr.
sorry guys, if you reading this
have fun!

*****




giftpack from nice nice people

underpaid

i just don't fucking believe
the intensity of stuff i have to learn and digest and churn
and the amount / level of shit i have to cover
is anywhere less than a fucking banker.

Challenge me.

Good / Bad

GOOD DAY

fast time
fav sudanese charcoal fish
tiger beer
nice words from someone
JANE
realising i have to THINK for what to write for BAD DAY


BAD DAY

feeling fat
goods fuckin' delayed
am really fat
6th nov headache